Miss Morbid and the Stupid B+'s

Hey reader,

Tuesday was the third Middle College massacre of 2010 and the first one that I was also a victim of. That's right. Children slaughtered after getting home from school by perfectionist parents. Report cards for the first quarter came out.

I'm usually a good student. I used to get all A's when I went to the Christian school where I was miserable at. Then, I took advanced classes in public school. Only two B's. Then, one B in independent study. Yeah, I went to three seperate high schools last year for sophomore year. I was not a troublemaker, I simply liked to call-out the troublemakers. The troublemakers didn't like that very much.

Now that I'm in an advanced high school at a college campus, subjects are getting a bit difficult especially since a couple of my classes are with actual college teachers and I have peers who are in the college. So, the only A that I got that was not a study hall class was US History (because I'm a history buff who gets 104's on almost all her tests). Although, I didn't get a grade for my college class African American Studies, which probably would have been an A too.

Other than that guess what I got? B in Spanish and three B+'s. That's BS! I've gotten through my entire life, nothing short of A's in English on my report card. I know I shouldn't be complaining. I know you probably want to jump through the computer and slap me because it could be so much worse but... but... B+'s are just another way of saying "almost there but you're not good enough!"

I don't know... it's just a blow to my self esteem because I pride myself on my essay writing skills. Plus, my boyfriend got all A's on his report card and he's taking harder classes then me. I don't even have a math class this semester. I just feel down...

I can understand the B+ in physics but in English 3 and Expository Reading and Writing, that's just unacceptable for me.

I WILL get an A in both classes by the end of the semester. That's really the point of this post, to set myself accountable and to set my goal. I WILL NOT get a B+ in English and Expo. I WILL get an A!

Sorry for probably boring you with my stupid rant...